Astra & Tesara Meeting 2/6/2022

[Anatketani]

Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
@Princess Astra Korraay  -  Once they are finished their business on the planet and are back in hyperspace, Tesara waits until Durro is in the navigators seat and goes to find Astra.
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
She finds Astra in her room. Currently sitting in the need drawing. Her lightsaber sat on a nightstand one of the only times she did not have it on her belt. She had her data pad and was drawing trying not to think about Qquinn and that looming shadow.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
“Hey, Astra.can I come in?”  She is poking her head in the door.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
"Of course" she said a happy smile on her face as she scuttled over and patted the bed best to her for Tesara to join her. She behaved as if nothing had happened between them. " How are you" she asked.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
“I’m all right given the circumstances.”  She smiled, coming to sit down beside Astra.  “There always so much going on that time passes without me realizing it.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" yah time passes quickly in some cases or takes for ever in others" Astra said. She smiled at her. " you looked awesome in that green dress by the way" She said. She should probably tell tesara about this mornings events but that could waght for a few moments.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara laughs.  “After being in a uniform for several months it felt absolutely ridiculous to be honest.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Still looked awesome, and sent that your favorite color. Did you pick it or did he. Like seriously cool. And I can't believe there are feathers on these jedi robes they match my lightsaber" she practically squealed for a moment. A bright grin crossed her face. She was quite happy for a moment.

That would not last much longer. " You want to hear about quinn don't you? I want to know what you guys and the professor got up to" She asked
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara reached out her hand and took Astra’s gently in her own and squeezed it, looking at her friend and chosen sister.  “I do want to hear about Quinn. I’m glad he’s alive but what you said worries me.”
She would answer the question about what the professor and Hadaza and she got up to after she has this important conversation with Astra.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" I discovered sumthing new and strange. There's this place between Asleep and Awake where visions come from. I had a vision that woke me up but not totally. So I decided to reach out to see if I could find him. I did not expect to I thought he was dead" she said quietly.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
“Well, if you were thinking of him perhaps your seer powers opened up a pathway to connect with him.”  She shifted to get more comfortable.  “Can you tell me what he said?”
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra blinked" I umm... I was so surprised to even find he was alive. He is in the unknown reasons somewhere. The sith empire is on the move they have ganed control of the mothers forces. I have no clue who they are bit it lines up with my vision. On top of that. He also kept trying to get me to come to him. To bring Roza and serve the sith queen to become a sith. I felt him searching throw the force for me. I believe I broke the connection befor he found me but im afraid Tesara." She said quietly.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara is sad, she can tell Astra is hurting.  She pulls her into a hug.  “It’s going to be ok.  We’ll find a way to bring him back.  He doesn’t know that Roza is safe on Baklid, right?  As long as he continues to believe she might be with us, the safer she is.  I know Ava would do everything in her power to protect her.”  She says, then sits back.  “I know you love Quinn and we will try to help him but you have to be ready for anything, Astra.  Good, bad and everything in between.”
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra shook her head. " He does not know where Roza is. I'm afraid for her I know she is safe. I'm afraid he will come after us. Tesara he started searching for me throw the force." She said Anxiously.

" he was a crazy good hunter. If he wanted to track me down he could. I can't fight him I can't hurt him.  I still love him even if he is a sith." she said quietly.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara looks thoughtful. “Then we need to inform everyone else that it’s possible that Quinn will be coming for you. If our guess is right, he and the others he is with might have the compass.  This would give us the chance to get it back.  And I trust you, Astra. I know you love him but if Quinn has become a Sith, he’s not truly the Quinn you met and fell in love with anymore.  He’s a broken and twisted version of himself.  The love that he has for you has been corrupted and turned to obsession rather than true love.”  She looks sad at the thought.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" No he doesn't have it. I asked him if he had meet the prylock. He had never heard of them I just remembered. I got a lecter form master about Atachment my attachment to he and Roza is a problem, it is touched with the dark side as will I beleave. It my be way I keep having Visions of Roza becoming a sith" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara frowns.  “I understand attachments and after a long time of contemplating it, I see where the line is.  If you love someone in a healthy way and can be with them in happiness, that is a good thing.  But if the force breaks the two of you apart through circumstance, and you struggle in that love, you have to choose to let it go. If you let it go and it comes full circle back to that person and you can live that happy life you want that’s wonderful, but if you let them go, the force has something else more beautiful and pure for you in store.  It broke my heart to leave Jack behind. The fact that he’s alive at all is a miracle to me.  I can never repay Ava for it. And yet I’m not by his side right now. I have to wonder, had I fought against this path, if I would have lost him anyway.  I’m trusting that if Jack is my future husband and father of my children, then he will be.  No amount of fighting to make it so would change that.  Sometimes the best way to hold on is to let go.”  She chuckles a little.  “I just had a similar conversation with Hadaza about vulnerability.  It’s similar but not exactly the same.  It comes down to opening your heart and mind and what is supposed to happen, will.  Like Durro has said to us thousands of times, -trust in the force and remember you’re teaching.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra smiled at her. " I know. I won't follow him down that path but I will not hurt him. As for Roza my wish to protect her is likely what will drive her to the Queen of the Sith." she shook her head as tears started to form. She was quick to wipe them away. She controls her emotions not the other way around. Yes right now she was fealing a great deal of pain but it would go away in time she was not going to dwel on it she did not have time for that nonsense. " I love Roza but I can't protect her from everything and if the force demands that I not be with her then that is what will happen. " She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara blinks.  She had been thinking about Quinn when talking about letting go but chooses not to address it right now.  “Astra I am so proud of you. Look how far you have come! Training with Durro is helping you so much, I can tell! And your choice to not take the medication was such an important step. You put your foot down and said no. That took a great deal of strength!”  She smiles brightly.  “All your hard work is showing.  A year ago you’d have been sobbing and overcome with emotions about Quinn.  Now you are having those emotions, but they are not rocking you like an earthquake and leaving you unbalanced and overwhelmed. It’s impressive how far you’ve come.  You should be proud.”  She smiles.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra shook her head " I still have so far to go and this battle is not over. " She said taking a deep breath. She shut her eyes reaching out to the force to help calm herself. " I will not be able to do this with out help. As for the medication I have come to the relization that it was dulling my senses and my abilitys. After it started to where off I was reminded of things that use to frighten me. Like the place where visions come from. Quinn did mention that seers were pretty powerful and he was not surprised but im still not sure what I did or how I did it" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara laughs a little.  “Or, ‘Thank you, Tesara! I AM proud of how far I’ve come even though I have more to learn.’.  She teased.  “The good thing is that you’re not going to do this alone. None of us are. We wouldn’t be here without the professor, as annoying as he can be. None of us would be here without Durro. Hadaza wouldn’t be alive without us. We are a team and the more we work together as one of the better we become. You won’t have to do any of this alone.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra smiled shaking her head. " I started so far from my path with out relizing it. I may be a but disappointed im myself. " Then smiled thinking of Hadaza and Durro.

" Yah I don't want to be anywhere near the professor. I don't trust him right now. Also what happened to Hadazzas leg. Your not the only one who can heal I can help to you know" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara sobers, the smile fading a little.  “She is struggling so hard right now. I have to keep reminding her that perfection and mastery aren’t attainable tomorrow.  She FEELS with so much intensity that it burns her up like a fever and leaves her drained. I am certain that she did not mean to injure herself but that is what has happened. I have healed her a few times, but the wound won’t fully heal until handyman has done his job in the med bay. And right now that…” She pauses, frowning.  “That pirate man is in the med bay and I don’t think it’s a good idea for any of us to be near him.”
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" I see, well handy man was able to treat me in my room he may be able to do the same for her." She said with a smile befor pulling Tesara into a hug. " Tesara if you need help tell someone please I know that She and I are both students and of different teachers and paths but it is possible for us to learn from exhother. And master is always more then willing to help anyone who needs it. I'm learned the hard way he can be trusted. Even though he's wrong sometimes"  She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara hugs her back tightly.  “You are so sweet Astra. I absolutely will ask for help if I need it. But honestly, I am also learning so much about myself while training her. And Durro has stepped in once or twice with her as well. I feel as if she is in the perfect place to continue on her journey.  And yes, Durro can be wrong sometimes, but so can all of us. None of us are perfect.  He has also come a long way.  I am no longer easily irritated by him because he actually listens now. Not just to me but to others. It’s a really good.” She pauses, looking sad for a moment.  “I hated to be given that ultimatum by the professor. I knew that if I didn’t agree to his terms, he would leave you behind. Which meant I would not leave you behind which meant they would go on without us. And then our chances of us surviving a swarm would have reduced to nothing.  I’m so sorry it hurt you. I’m glad that you’re not taking the medication anymore.”
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra smiled " I understand it's ok. The professor dose not know this but there was always the possible of using a slave cercet to connect the shuttle and his ship Durro and I could lead the professors ship throw hyperspace from there. She said with a slight grin. Working in the kitchen and being only a student had its advantages. That reminds me he spoke to the personalitys and he won't tell me what they told him it's so frustrating" Astra said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
“I’m fairly certain the professor is aware of that. He has a way of understanding and knowing things that you wouldn’t think he does.”  She sighs.  “As for Durro, there has to be a reason he hasn’t told you yet. Perhaps he’s not done communicating with them or, doesn’t have all the information yet and knowing that telling you without having all the information would actually frustrate you more.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Actually he apparently promised one of them that he would not tell me" She said shaking her head.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara watches her for a moment. “ I know that rankles but whatever it was they told him was extremely important that you don’t know about it. Do you trust Durro?”
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Yes I trust Durro, he has more than earned that" she said with a smile.
" do you really trust the professor" she asked.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara looks grumpy, which is wholly unlike her.  “Yes.”  She grinds out, obviously annoyed.  “I trust him. I’ll obey his orders, but I don’t have to like him.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" you want to talk about what is going on in your head" she asked confirmed. She picked up the small black and white bunny that sat on her pillow and handed it to Tesara. " come on you can talk to me" she said with a worm smile.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara laughs, takes the bunny and squeezes it.  “Oh it just rubs me the wrong way that he is so cold and callous. Insulting someone is a favorite pastime alongside questionably drug filled cupcakes.”  She snorts.  “I just decided to stop trying to predict what he would say or do. It’s impossible. It’s easier just to follow orders and stay quiet.  I’m sure the day will come when I’ll prove myself to him in some way, but for now I’ve merely become a piece of furniture that occasionally speaks and is helpful.”  She shrugs.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra glares " He should treat people and you better. You deserved to be treated better Tesara. You know it would not hurt for you to channel you inner hot head and tell him his behavior is not ok" She said with a smile.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara laughs right out loud this time.  Her shoulders are shaking with hilarity at the idea.  It takes her a moment to stop cackling to speak clearly.  “The only thing that would do is prove to him that I’m a hysterical female!”  She wheezes out.  “If anyone else treated me the way he does, I would definitely be doing that. But no one else does, Astra.  Everyone else aboard this ship treats me kindly and fairly. The thing about the professor is that I am fully aware that he is going to insult me and be rude. These are things I can count on. Trying to change him would be pointless and a lesson in bashing my head against the wall. No thank you!”  She chuckles.  “I learned a long time ago to pick my battles and that is not one I will be fighting anymore.  Instead of taking everything so personally, I’ve decided to just let whatever he says roll off my back and not affect me. I got so boiling mad at him on Priloc that I nearly blew up the ship in rage. That’s something that leads to the Darkside. So I’m not going to let him get under my skin like that anymore”. She smiles.  It actually feels good to say this out loud to someone.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra burst into a fight of Giggles. " no there's nothing wrong with standing up for yourself. Sol told me that after Ashinti liked me out that one time" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara grins.  “Oh I will stand up for myself. It’s just pointless to do that with the professor.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" no it's not, especially when you have people who will back you up.  He can't just treat us however he wants. If we let him get away with that behavior he my try shaving those dried cupcakes down your through" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara’s eyes sparkle with mischief.  “It’s one thing to ignore or fight someone who is verbally abusing you. It’s another to stand up and fight if they are doing something physical. If the professor was to attempt to physically shove cupcakes down my throat, he would find his nether regions in quite a bit of pain from my boots.”  She grins again.  “Also, there is a time and place for standing up to him. Right now, we are heading into a war with the swarm and he knows more about them than anyone else. He is training us to fight them and work as a team. It’s not worth it to me to fight with him about his rudeness right now. If we survive this and return to the outer rim successfully, I might give him a piece of my mind.”  She chuckles.
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra burst into a fit of giggles. " You don't know how badly I want to thretion to grind that pill up into a pouder back to into a cupcake and shove it up is but" she said. It took her a moment to recover.

" I don't like bullies Tesara and he acts like one. From how he treats you to his trying to force his wishes on other people it's not ok and will only get worse if we don't address it.  How can we work as a team with him abusing you, and forcing members of his team to do as he wants. That's not ok leaders don't use fear to keep control. Like he did to you." She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara pulls Astra into another hug.  “Thank you, love.”  She pulls back with a smile.  “However,” she points around them.  “This is HIS ship. I signed his contract. I agreed to the training he is putting us through.  He is clothing us and feeding us and hosting us on this journey. It would be very unwise for me to bite the hand that feeds us.”
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" fine but I already did and im fine. I totally lied to him when he gave me that stupid demand. His control over me only extends as far as I alow it. I spit that stupid thing out in front of durro. I really did not like lying to him like that but I did not see another choise especially after he called me broken and dangerous" She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara nods. “I do understand, he has been more harsh with you than everyone else. But, Astra…“ She leans in, looking serious now. “Don’t underestimate him. Don’t expect to stand up to him and not have consequences for those actions or words. Just be aware, please?  If he kicks you off of this ship I know Durro will continue on with the shuttle with you, but I pray that doesn’t happen.”
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" I'm not im sure there will be some backlash. For it. I never wanted to lie to him but I could not keep taking that medication and he was not listening to me" She said.
@TheTraveler
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara looks alarmed, taking Astra's hand quickly and squeezing to impress upon her the importance of her words.  "Astra there will absolutely be some backlash.  You lied to him and he doesn't brook any bullshit.  If you want to stand up to him and tell him what you think that is your decision but don't just think he will shrug and not give you a piece of his mind in return.  And if you DO decide to do that, please, PLEASE have Durro present.  The Professor trusts and respects Durro.  It will help."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Oh im not doing anything alone with that man I don't trust that he won't try to force me to take that medication" She said shaking her head.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara releases Astra's hand and sits back, looking relieved.  "I'm fairly certain that Durro has spoken to the Professor about it but what was said, I don't know.  We'll just have to wait and see."
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Yes I guess so" Astra said. " So what kind of trouble did you guys find" she asked
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara shuddered.  "Zombie children.  Hadaza found them, actually.  She fought them off, but there was one adult zombie that was laughing at Hadaza and the Professor arguing with each other.  Come to find out, he had a man that he had been..."  She grimaces,  "Eating.  We rescued the man but he was in horrible shape, as you can imagine.  Apparently he belonged with the pirates that follow the Sisters of the Angel around, robbing places that had been destroyed.  Distasteful.  Anyway, we left him with the Sisters when we left the planet.  I'm glad he's gone, he made me nervous."
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" wow that sounds horrifying" Astra did wide eyed.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"It was."  Tesara nods.  "I keep feeling like the Force sent us to that planet for a couple of reasons, but I also think we wasted a lot of time there.  I hope that this planet Durro wishes to visit isn't as long of a stop.  I'm ready to get to Origin and the Light."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Yes, I kinda disliked that you all took Ashanti to get information and I got into trouble for her actions.  oh, Durro had the strangest thing happen to him too. Wail we were there. He could probably explain it better but apparently, I came to him from the future with a message. It's possible but I don't know who we learned about it in school he suggested I look it up." she said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara gaped at Astra.  "Wait hang on, Durro said a future version of you came to him with a message!?"  She was astounded.  "Well what did future you tell him?"
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" I am not totally sure he was still processing it when he told me about it. Sumthing about not understanding what I was capable of and that he can't die bit that's all I know" she said. I wonder if the professors library will have information on jedi Seers. " she mused.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara grins.  "Oh that library is overflowing with information!  We can go check it out while Durro is navigating if you'd like?"  She knows there is likely much more to whatever Durro saw than this, but asking Astra for more when it was not her that witnessed it seems silly.
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Yah I definitely should not go there alone. I'm pretty sure im going to be in trouble for a long time" She said quietly.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"We don't have to go now.  Would you like me to go and see if I can find books about Seers and bring them back here?"
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" No thank you, I think maybe it would be better to waght on that the last thing you need is to be in trouble right along with me. " She said with a smile.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara stands up, that look of mischief in her eyes again.  "Maybe this is my silent way of standing up to him then."  She grins, hugs Astra and heads for the door.  "I'll be back soon!"
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra blinked confused. "Umm ok," Astra said confused and watched her leave.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
(((OOC I am going to have to roll to see if I can find books on the Library thread - also trying to work at the same time so give me a few.  ?  )))
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
That was done there are none
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
(((Well shit, I just rolled a 19.)))
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Yah im sorry
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
_


Tesara returns about 20 minutes later, looking disappointed.  "Sadly there aren't any books about Seers."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" It's ok Tesara. Seers are rare. So there probably is not manny books on them or there abilitys. Thank you for looking though " She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"Of course.  I accidentally took the bunny with me to the library.  He was fairly confused and requested to be returned to you immediatley."  She grins and hands Astra the stuffed bunny.
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra grinns and accepts the bunny. " I have no clue where it can from it was just in her" She said with a grin. " Is there one in your room" She added.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"No.  I am bunniless."  She looks mock morose for a moment, then smiles.  "I wonder who it belonged to."
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" No clue" She said seating it back down. Maby it was some kind of mix up or left her by a previous companion. " She said.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"Well then he must be given a name now that he has been adopted by us."  She nods.
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" yes but what." Looking at the little creatures. Sol cam to mind almost emeditly but she kept herself from saying it.  She would get her attachments under control and she chose not to sigest that name " Maby we should ask the others he can be our masksout" she joked.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
"Well we're NOT naming him cupcake."  She mused.  "Hot Cross Buns?"  She laughed
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
"No definitely not Cupcake. Umm... What a bout hops?"  Astra grinned.
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
She considers this, then shakes her head.  "Mister Hops?  It's a cross between our suggestions."
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
Astra burst into a fit of giggles. " that's wonderful" she said with a grin. " I think Mister Hops is great" she giggled.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara patted the stuffed bunny on the head.  "Excellent, I crown him Mister Hops."  She smiled at Astra.  "It's so good to hear you laugh."  She leans down and hugs her again.  "I'm off to get some sleep, now that I've been able to get some things off my chest and have a good laugh with my friend."
Princess Astra Korraay — 02/06/2022
" Yes good night Tesara. Sleep well" She said and huge her back.
@Tesara Anerin
Tesara Anerin — 02/06/2022
Tesara leaves and closes the door behind her and returns to her room.
/end