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Eggshells of the mind 1/20/22
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/20/2022
Once back aboard the shuttle, Durro finishes prepping for a day of healing. Before heading out, he goes to find his padawan.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/20/2022
Astra stops Durro before he gets to far from the shuttle. Gestures for him to follow her onto the shuttle. Once inside she find a spot that no one would see in the shuttle. She glared at Durro for a moment before spiting the pill out into her hand. " I am not a small child, This is my choice, Why dose what I want not matter. He did not bather to ask me what I wanted" She snapped. She looked at Durro hurt and confused.
" This is not fair and its not what I want master. Do I have no rights as a person. I will not take this. I need you to understand me, and respect my wishes, or will you treat me like a child as we" She said then throw the pill at the wall. Her anger was evident for a brief moment.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
The pill never hits the wall. Instead, it levitates gently into Durro's hand, both of which are then tucked into the opposite sleeves. He calmly waits, watching her kindly until she is clearly done speaking.
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
She watches Durro for a moment tears form in her eye. " is he right, am I broken and dangerous" she asked.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
"Yes." Durro says gently. "Yes to both. You're right, the Professor ignored you when he probably shouldn't have, but he wasn't wrong. You're weaker fractured than whole. I believe there's merit to his theory that your friends are just you; though I think suppressing them with medication isn't the best course. Which reminds me, I want to try something."
He reached out a hand and places it gently on her face. He closes his eyes and focuses on everything Atril taught him about connecting with another. He relays to Astra what she needs to do, encouraging her to give it a try.
@Princess Astra Korraay
@TheTraveler
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
"You're not listening to me either. They are not part of me anymore. Why won't anyone listen to me" she said? She felt unheard. Even more, she felt she was not being given a choice. It bothered her to once again, be forced into a cage she did not want to be in.
Astra was not at all in the mood for whatever Durro wanted to try. She glared at him at first. " Why?" She said finally.
She would wagjt for his answe befor finally following his instructions.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
Durro withdraws his hand at her outburst.
"I'm sorry. I got caught up in the moment; sometimes when I'm thinking ahead I forget to take the steps in order." He smiles and adds; "I'm not sure you're aware, actually, but Tesara and I share a deep connection. One of Master Palpatine's students showed me how to connect via the Force with those I share a deep connection with. We can communicate, not just vague emotions but specific words and messages. We can share images, even memories, and do this across distances. At least; I've done it from orbit when Tesara was on the surface."
"Anyway, when we briefly compared notes on our visions, I thought maybe we might have such a connection. If we do, you can show me what happened when you went mindwalking. I might be able to speak directly to your new friends, to listen to them and better understand what's going on. I am listening and I want to understand, truly understand as best I can. I'm going to need all of the information I can get if I'm going to plead their case to Professor Kenobi."
Durro steps back and says,
"We don't have to try anything unless you want to. I'm listening, if you're willing to walk me through it."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
" yah vision it was weard master it was not clear like they normally are," she said briefly distracted. Then her eyes went wide as she realized the implications of what Durro was suggesting.
" I know you two could talk but to be able to shair memorys that's wow iv shared memorys it Quinn but that was because he can't really control his ability. How exactly does this work. I've told you all the information I have to the best of my ability perhaps if you could see what I was trying to tell you" she said.
" In other words teach me master" she said. Foced once again.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
(((OOC, I the player do not remember how much detail was gone into with Atril; that was done in-session before we recorded them. I am sure Durro remembers though; since has done this regularly with Tesara.)))
Durro smiles and reaches out again. Taking Astra's head in his hand, he instructs her how to reach out to him, as he reaches out to her. Once he can feel the Force swirling around him, he says softly,
"Good. Now, try and tell me something with only your mind."
@Princess Astra Korraay
@TheTraveler
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
Astra closes her eyes an focuses on quieting her mind first befor reaching out to Durro with the force. " can you hear me" she thinks.
@TheTraveler
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
After a few moment of no respons. Astra reaches up and takes Durro's hand. " im sorry for my outbursts, I am angry really angry about what has transpired." she said.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
"You have every right to be." Durro says, coming out of his meditative state. "The trick is to feel it, understand it, and let it go. Easier said than done, I'll admit; but necessary. Look at Ashanti; that is the end of the road for one who embraces their rage, and wields it like a weapon."
"So feel it, tell me about it. Vent." Durro says with a smile. "I'm listening."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
Astra started at him she was a bit confused. Didn't his order suppress their emotions. " he was not listening to me and these things I don't know what to call them they know things about my life that I don't remember. I need to know this. It's important how can I be whole when parts of who I am is missing. If the professors medican makes them disappear so does the information they have" she said quietly.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/21/2022
"That makes sense."
"Instead of suppressing them, what we talk to them? Help them... you, make peace with each other and maybe, just maybe, we can make whole again what has been fractured. A much better solution to me than to suppressing them with medication."
"That is the case I intend to make to Professor Kenobi. I have no doubt the only way he'll go for it is if you are still trying to get better, to heal. He was not completely wrong in his assessment. I hope both of you see the merit of each other's views."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/21/2022
Astra glared at Durro for a moment. Then shook her head."yes master you know, He is not always right and you point out that he is not a doctor. When you tried to convince me to go to starlight. I will not take that medication master. If it means I have to leave the ship and all of you then fine. I have to know what im missing master. I need the time to learn this information " she said.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/22/2022
"Don't worry about it now." Durro says. "Let me talk to Professor Kenobi."
"Can you at least promise me to listen to him, as I have listened to you? You don't have to do what he says, but give him an honest listen."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/22/2022
Once again, anger flashes across her face. She shuts her eyes takes a deep breath, shakes her head and the anger is gone. " Why should I, he refused to listen to me. I don't trust him nore do I respect him anymore" she said. It was clear she was Angry with Kanobi. " How the hell that cold man could ever have been even remotely related to Sol is behind me" she practically growled.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/22/2022
"Everyone makes mistakes. You forgave me for my shortsightedness. Why can't you forgive Kenobi? After all," Durro says with a grin, "he is family?"
"You can't expect him to listen to you if you won't listen to him."
"I'm not asking you to agree. Just listen."
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/22/2022
" yeah, he family who needs a good kick in the backside." She muttered then giggled at the thought. " no that would not work he would turn around still believing he is right and offer a cupcake." She said. Her anger seeing to finally disappear. " fine I will listen. But I am not taking that medication." She said making her stance clear. This was one thing she would not back down on.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 01/22/2022
"Fair enough. Though I encourage you to keep an open mind."
He heads for the boarding ramp.
"Shall we get to business?"
/end(?)
@Princess Astra Korraay
Princess Astra Korraay — 01/22/2022
" yes master," she said and followed him.
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