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RE: Time to step up
The visit was far from unexpected. She had a lot to get off her chest and had been planning on letting him have it with both barrels. However, Richard’s visit came before she had time to really collect her thoughts. ‘No problem’ she thought as he set down and started to speak. She moved to a chair directly across from him and set down as she listened carefully.
Richard spoke calmly and steadily. “I’m going to speak, please do not interrupt, I promise to give you your turn.”
She knew that he was using a spell to control his emotions. The flow of magic around him was a big flag but it was really the lack of any emotions on his face that told her what was going on. She made a mental note of it as she nodded and waited for him to continue.
“I don't know what happened with you out there with the wolves.”
‘That’s okay big guy. I didn’t really know what was going on either. It just kind of happened that way’ she thought as he continued to speak.
“Not only were you disrespectful to them for no reason but you were disrespectful to me in front of them. I expect that had it not been for the trials you would have started a fight with them and to achieve what? Were you trying to ruin Kira’s chances to learn from them? Did you want to prove that you were the Alpha out there instead of me? You have asked me to step up and lead this cabal numerous times and when I finally try to you do everything you can to sabotage it.”
His words cut her like a knife and burned her heart. She had thought that since that day. That horrible day of weakness when she betrayed Simon to Mr. Black that she had been improving. That she had been more supportive. She hated the idea that he was in charge but she never wanted to sabotage him. She wanted to earn leadership, not steal it away from him. She gritted her teeth as the emotions grew from deep within as she watched him turn away from her. Her eyes watched every movement, every flow of magical energy.
Richard continued, “Rebecca, I am finally ready to do what I need to in order to lead us but your actions out there with the wolves cannot be considered acceptable. I realize that I have not been a proper leader but that ends today. When we are finished here we are all going to sit down and we are going to discuss some serious ground rules and the consequences for ignoring them. But I need you to be on board, none of this works if you don't back me.”
Rebecca didn’t know how to answer his statement. “Richard” she said then paused. “Stop being a wuss!” she said with attitude dripping from her lips. “Look at you” she said leaning forward as she rested her hand on her knee. “Scared to yell at me? Is that way you are hiding behind your spell. Scare you will upset me?” she snapped up to her feet, “come on Richard. For the love of Christ, I really screwed up.” She said waving her arms, “be mad. Heck! I was mad at you for putting me in that crappy situation.”
She had no problem showing her anger, “Go find that spirit. What the heck are we, dogs to go play fetch with!?" she knew her statement was insulting to the people they just met, but she was really upset with the whole thing. Including her own behavior. "Still that didn’t give me any right to act that way.” She leaned forward towards him, “BE MAD! SHOW ME SOME EMOTION! BE TRUTHFUL FOR A CHANGE!” she demanded as she raised her voice.
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