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RE: Get it Together
"I do have other tasks at hand right now, I addition to the pressing matter of when to depart Baku to consider. I do believe we lack adequate time to achieve atonement through meditation here as well. It's also more than a matter of the feeling peace required for meditation while we are here. It is also a matter of peace in the sense of not being interrupted. I've honestly never received so much attention as I have from Lady Baku and I am concerned about interruptions. Whatever amount of peace the future holds, I think it would be best to wait until we are relieved of our duty here, or until we relieve outselves if that is what we decide. That does not mean that your guidance is not welcome while we are here. I both welcome and appreciate it, as well as see understanding the process of atonement necessary before setting out to achieve it."
"If I do find that I am able to meditate here, I would find it more pressing to look into what Mya said about dying here. Do you remember what happened when we all meditated together for the first time since arriving at the academy and you saw what I saw about the possible ramifications of the fencing team taking patrol the night of their release? I wonder if our meditation time would be best spent together. We could ask Mya to join us after dinner."
"I believe I understand. So, what you are saying is that using the force to take a life is a dark act, because the force is consciously flowing through life and will be tainted with darkness if used to take a life? That is why I am now also tainted with darkness, because I used it in a way that caused it darkness?"
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