What did the communicator do to you?

[Gar]

Ni realized how she might sound and she deflated a little. "I'm sorry, Gaddy, I didn't mean to--" she couldn't find the words, "this last brush with death sorta--" then rerouting her verbalized thoughts again, "It got me just a little shaken up, that's all," she finally stated plainly, staring at the floor with what seemed to be her very first witnessed expression of embarrassment.

The flustered Zeltron shrugged it off and continued, "Its been a real blast running around doing quests with you, Gaddy, and no matter what happened--even if I almost died--I always felt great after the quest was completed. But this thing your friends are into?" she shook her head and laughed nervously, "Reeeaaaalllyyy messy, not an easy fix like our usual 'Save the Damsel in Distress' or 'Catch the Bad Guy' routines." She shook her head again, "But although that is part of why I'm upset, that's not why I feel bad.."

Ni winced as she finally uttered her confession. "I, uh, kinda sorta, uh..." she took a deep breath and babbled, "--inadvertently murdered one of the Jedi? That brainy one. Did you see those smeared brains decorating the corridor? Oh, yeah, you collected the bodies. Anyway, uh, that was because I tricked the Wooki into thinking she was his enemy."

Ni exhaled and cleared her throat, continuing to stare down the floor. "I mean, I've never had to--to--kill--anyone before. I could always talk myself out of any conflict, and if that didn't work--well, you know," she smiled in spite of herself, though it quickly dissipated into a very rare frown. Her eyes lit up with the epiphany. She reworded loudly, the realization sinking in, "I never killed anyone before! I mean, I know I didn't really do it--the Wooki did all the smashing--and the--" she opened up her hands to mimic the cerebral explosion, "but I still kinda feel responsible...you know?"

Ni looked up into Gadeon's eyes sheepishly. "Maybe I'd feel better if I could know she was a bad person, that she deserved to die. But I can't really convince myself of that. Trysta is a criminal, and it seems that that brainy Jedi was only doing her duty."