What does it mean?(Ni)

[aipsylon]

Gadeon nodded to her, he was nodding to himself as well. If she did not believe it possible then maybe it wouldn't be for her. She was right, she had accepted that she was the distraction, that was something he had seen her being for a long time. She was very good at it, but he knew there was something more to her, that she had it there somewhere. "If it is not for you I would understand, it is a lot of work, and honestly there is a good chance that we will fail in changing that, but I disagree that it cannot be changed. In many ways they are right, but that is like saying that the justice system is mostly right, they have the right crimes proper punishments, good enforcement, but never mind they lack a way of truly determining a man's guilt innocence they had things mostly right. Besides, I used that once to have an innocent man that was in my way convicted of assault, it worked out well for me." Gadeon had been more thoughtful along the journey back when he stopped thinking about whatever it was his frustration was imminent. "Why is helping me all that matters to you Ni?" There was a little tinge of anger at the edge of his voice. Anger that had been there, suppressed and controlled or at least mostly controlled ever since he had learned of Auro's death.