What does it mean?(Ni)

[Gar]

The Zeltron winced when she heard his angry tone, her shoulders slumping like a scolded child. She was surprised by this side of him peeking out, having never seen it so exposed before. Ni blinked and struggled for words again, eventually stuttering, "Y-your...confidence...in me is very...f-flattering...b-but...it is misplaced..." she averted her gaze and fidgeted with a leather strap on her outfit, "My Master believed in me..." Ni shyly glanced up to meet Gadeon's eyes, "that is why he is dead now..."

Ni had to look away again to muster the courage to say the rest. "I...don't know if you would understand...if I told you why helping you is so important... but what I really need you to know, Gaddy, is that...you shouldn't think of me as anyone special...everyone else can think that way if they want to--if it makes them feel good--but I can't let you think that way..." her brows furrowed, frustration increasing as she tried in vain to explain herself. "Did you hear Bay mention that Cox abandoned me, that he said I wasn't important? Do you know why this did not upset me?" her voice grew hoarse with each syllable, breaking as she admitted, "Because that is how it should be, Gaddy. If my Master had the good judgement to do what Cox did, he would be alive today..."

The Zeltron sighed, "We've been through a lot, so I understand why you might think of me as more than what I really am, but at the end of the day I'm really just one of many. And you are not. You are set apart from the rest and I don't even think you realize it. You deserve happiness, the kind of happiness that was denied of my Master because he had the same problem that you do, the problem that set him apart and also condemned him...His ideals sent him to an early grave, and there was nothing I could do to stop it because I was so oblivious at the time..." Ni closed her eyes tight and rose to her feet, turning away.