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RE: In character game chat
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Lysire found herself leaning up against a tree, her breath racing as her anxiety rose sharply. Her eyes shifted as if searching for some unseen force converging on her.
She moved along side the tree and stumbled to the ground.
"You know they will never accept you, never forgive you" the voice whispered.
Lysire steadied herself as she could feel the pounding of her heart. Her chest felt as if it were going to explode under the pressure of her heart's beating.
She pulled her legs in until she was kneeling in the dirt as she fought to control her anxiety. She closed her mind and fought for control.
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
Something was nagging at the back of Ava's mind. The officer side of her was distracted where she had trouble clearing her mind. ' it happened on your ship, your home. ' her mind would tell her. ' you should find out what happened excally a good officer alway investigations a problem. ' trying to forcus on her medication. She found herself unable to as she looked to Tesara " May I be excuse Tesara? "
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Meanwhile...
Durro walks into the jungle in the direction Nova pointed. Nineteen years on Lanus comes in handy; Lysire did not bother to hide her tracks. A bootprint here, a disturbed plant there; broken stems and trampled grasses lead Durro right to Lysire.
"Lysire? What's wrong?"
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Her eyes closed to the world around, Lysire could feel the approach of Durro through the Force. Her mind barely holding on to its control over the anxiety.
"Sometimes, the emotions and environment can be overwhelming, Master" she said, though only partially truthful.
"he has come to expose you"
"I was merely trying to center myself once more before rejoining the others," she added desperately trying to ignore the whispers in her mind.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro approaches and squats down next to Lysire. He places a reassuring hand on her shoulder and tries to help her to regain her composure.
"Tell me what happened. I'll just listen. No judgement."
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Lysire half cringed as the sudden surprise of his touch hit her. She fought the urge to pull away, finally calming herself again.
"don't trust him, he is here to expose you," the whispers said softly in a trusting nurturing voice.
That was the horrors of her problem. The voice was always so soft, and at times kind. It wasn't how one would expect it to be. More that of a caring parent than a demonic force she had been warned of.
There were times she would never admit, that the voice was the only sense of comfort to her. A link to the mother she barely remembered. Worse, the voice at times of high stress took on a face from her memories. A face of warmth and comfort. The first face she could remember, if only in dreams.
"I don't understand Master," Lysire said softly. Her breathing calm, long and steady. "What is there to speak of," she added.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
"Well, let's start at the beginning. What happened with Nova?"
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Lysire still held her eyes closed as she slightly tilted her head. "She asked to have a conversation and we spoke. At the end, I walked away," she explained softly.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
"What did you speak about?" Durro asks kindly, almost like two friends catching up.
Tesara Anerin — 01/27/2021
“Of course, Ava.” Tesara says, looking puzzled. “Is something wrong?”
Nova — 01/27/2021
Nova was approaching Tesara and Ava to join for meditation when she noticed that Ava wasn't able to focus. "Lysire and I had a heated discussion, that is all. Then Lysire ran off, Durro is currently after Lysire while he told me to join you." She lays down in the clearing.
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
Ava listened to Nova wanting to asked which was it a fight or a heated discussion. There was a difference. A fight usually involve a little physical contact, or more while a heated discussion was judt shouting. This made her more curious to figure out what the cameras might had picked up. " No not really, something between Nova and Lysire I wish to investigate a little into the manor to find out what transpired. " keeping her emotions hidden appearing to remain calm. As she addressed Tesara infornt of Nova.
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
'Had I done something wrong,' Lysire questioned herself as if to diagnose any possible misdeeds.
'or they will lie to claim your guilt,' the whispers said softly. 'You saw this before. Don't be fooled.'
Lysire's mind raced through the conversation searching her mistake. Why Master Thel-Tanis would be disappointed in her. She had thought she handled herself accordingly.
Fear gripped her heart as her mind raced. She needed to by time, to stall. Anything to give her a moment to find her mistake and acknowledge it before it all crashes around her.
"Nova had asked for it to be a private conversation," she said failing to hide the panic in her voice. "Would it not be wrong to violate her request," she said hoping he didn't notice her panic.
'he will expose you, and take away all that you have. You will never be free' the voice warned. 'buried in a frozen tumb, forgotten and lost to even the Force'
Lysire fought back the emotional roller-coaster her mind was putting her. She closed her eyes tightly forcing a pair of tears to slip down her cheeks. Memories of the Vault flooded her mind.
For as far as the eye could see, thousands of them. Slabs of Carbonite that held people. Locked in a living hell as time slowly marched on without them.
'he will expose you for what you are,'
In a barely audible whimper, Lysire uttered, "please." A last ditch effort to chase away the visions in her mind.
Tesara Anerin — 01/27/2021
Tesara glances at both women. It’s on the tip of her tongue to ask Nova what happened, but there is a sense of unease in both, so she decides against it. “Would the two of you like to do a mediation with me while Durro searches?” She says calmly but encouragingly.
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
Ava opened her mouth to speak ' I thought she said yes in being excuse. ' than stopped herself. Taking an moment to think it over carefully. If she was going to decline she would have to be very polite about it. Tesara wasn't doing anything wrong just asking a question. " perhaps in an while, my mind isn't forcus at the moment. Please forgive me like I said before I wish to be excuse to investigate in the manor at hand. If that's alright with you,, unless it is important for me to remain and medicate instead. " softly speaking being respectful.
Tesara Anerin — 01/27/2021
Tesara looks at both of them thoughtfully, then nods. There is a kind of energetic cord tying them together that she is unfamiliar with. If one was upset, so was the other. Meditation was hard enough to do for a beginner without this kind of distraction. “All right, go on. I’ll stay to practice. “.
Nova — 01/27/2021
Nova glanced Ava's direction as she got her wish. "I believe the ramp camera got all of it. I got nothing to hide." She then looked up at the sky thinking to herself, 'It matters not what Ava finds, I am in the right here.'
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
Ava give a respectful bow towards Tesara. Pausing as she rose back up from her bow. Before nodding at Nova " thank you " she headed off towards the ship and walked up the ramp once she approached.
As she headed towards the flight deck. She started to climb up the ladder and entered the flight deck. She caught Ryan in the corner taking a hit of spice and what appeared to be offering it to the cat seeing his hand with the spice raised out to the empty space. " I wish to see the footage of the camera on the ramp. " hearing a yes boss lady from Ryan as he went and brought up the footage.
Ava had him back it up til she saw what she was looking for and had him stop it to watch what transpired. Pleased about their being audio as she watch and listened.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro looks concerned but continues kindly.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I can sense the conflict in you though, something is bothering you."
Durro sits back on his heels and sighs, looking at Lysire kindly.
"You've explained some of your conflict to me and I can make reasonable guesses to the rest. I just want you to know that you'll always have my support, as a master and a mentor. I understand your story hasn't had an easy or happy beginning, but that doesn't define who you are. It's who you choose to be that matters, for it's your choices that define you; not the predictions of the Grand Council. Not your parentage or even your past. Your future is not set, it's whatever you make it. So make it a good one."
With that, Durro stands. He offers Lysire his hand to help her up
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Lysire kept her eyes close as she listened while focusing herself inward. She wasn't fearful of what she would see. She was fearful of what they would see in her eyes.
The memories continued to flash before her mind's eye. The look of horror and the sound of death echoing in her ears. It was tearing her apart with guilt and horror.
She wanted to tell Master Thel-Tanis that he was wrong. That she was the monster the Grand Council had feared.
But a part of her, that part that was who she was before a few days ago, so badly wanted to believe him. She tried to hold back the tears of grief, but she couldn't. The memories of what she had done carried so much weight.
'do you think he would hold such kind thoughts about you, if he knew what you had done? If he knew what you are?'
She let out a deep breath then spoke softly, "I want so badly for you to be right."
She wasn't sure if her comment was meant to Master Thel-Tanis or to the whispered voice in her mind. And that scared her the most.
She nodded and accepted his hand and slowly stood up.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro smiles and helps her up.
"Much better. Now, remember another Jedi teaching: Be mindful of the present moment. The past cannot be changed and the future is not set. Keep your focus on the here and now, where our actions have the most impact."
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
'do you see,' the whisper said softly. 'he admits the truth. Your past can't be changed. No matter how far you flee, it will follow you. They will find out what you did.'
Lysire only nodded as she calmly brushed off the leafs and dirt off her robes. She took a moment to gather her thoughts before turning to him.
"Yes, Master," she said softly with a respectful bow.
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
After watching the footage Ava made a copy to her data pad. Than thanked Ryan and Shire the cat for ryans amusement.
Ava left the ship and headed off in the direction that Durro and Lysire had went. If it was up to her she would make nova appolized to Lysire for her actions. She would asked Durro what he think and showed him what happened. She was upset and very disappointed in Nova.
Ava approached Durro seeing Lysire following behind durro. " Lysire am so sorry what happened. Nova was out of line. I discovered what happened you should see this Durro " handing durro the data pad.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro watches the footage and listens intently. He says nothing; simply gestures for the other two to follow him to the clearing for Meditation.
As everyone finally comes together for meditation, Durro prepares to speak.
TheTraveler — 01/27/2021
Lysire bows slightly, "if you will excuse me," she said softly. "I am not feeling myself. I will return to my ship for some private meditation."
She will turn to Durro, "Master," she said as if asking to be dismissed from the rest of training.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro holds up his hand.
"Stay, this is a place of peace and healing. Those who wish to can meditate on their own in their free time."
Nova — 01/27/2021
Nova stayed laying on her back when they arrived. She glanced their direction then looked back up at the sky. She kept quiet and still as she remained in her thoughts.
Durro Skywalker — 01/27/2021
Durro clears his throat and speaks loudly and clearly, his voice heard all across the clearing. "Good morning friends. We've had a bit of a false start this morning, but we're all here together now. As this is our first lesson together, I'll explain why we are all here; even those of us who cannot manipulate the Force."
Durro begins walking back and forth across the clearing, his eyes roaming over the small group, from member to member, ensuring they are paying attention, like a professor lecturing an Academy class.
"What do we know about the Force? It is an energy field created by all living things; it surrounds us, and penetrates us, and binds the galaxy together. Life creates it and makes it grow. We're luminous beings, all of us, if you are alive you have the Force; without it life cannot exist. All of us can touch the Force to some degree, though only the select few can harness it and make it work for them." Here Durro looks at Ava and Nova, the two non-Jedi in the group. He then looks at Tesara and Lysire, the two Jedi under his guidance. He continues.
"However, the Force has a Dark Side; a corrupting influence that poisons those who draw on it. Anger, fear, aggression; these are the Dark Side of the Force. They flow easily, and are quick to join you, but once you start down the dark path it will forever dominate your destiny. Fear and Selfishness are the root of the Dark Side; all who call on it can trace their problems back to Fear or Selfishness."
He looks at his young students; this part is important and he wants to ensure they are all paying attention.
"All sentient beings feel fear; from a master Jedi like Mace Windu, to a young initiate like Lysire. From a lady and an officer like Ava, to a young traveler like Nova. We all feel fear. What do we fear? We all fear something; whether it be losing a loved one, or that a terrible secret will be known, or that will never measure up to the expectations of others."
Durro pauses for moment "Why do we fear? Well, we fear for selfish reasons. We fear losing a loved one because we don't know how we will go on without them. We fear a terrible secret being known because we fear rejection and judgement from those we consider friends or even family; we fear losing those relationships. We fear not measuring up to expectations because we fear that we will be responsible for the negative outcomes of our incompetence. We fear for selfish reasons, and when we act on that, there is only suffering."
Durro stops his movement and glances to each of the listening students. "Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. We see this truth all around us every day; if we fear someone or something that makes us angry. When we're angry at something or someone, resentment grows; resentment and anger. We hate that which angers us, especially over time. And when we act on our hatred and anger, everyone suffers." Durro takes a seat, and assumes a meditative pose.
"For us here now, as beginners in studying the Force, Fear is our greatest enemy. That will be our focus today. Quiet your mind, center your spirit, immerse yourself in the river of the Force and let its currents guide you to your greatest fear. Only by knowing what you fear will you be able to accept it, and to overcome it. Not to defeat it, but to live in spite of it. We all feel fear, and we're all inherently selfish. We must learn to recognize and accept our weaknesses; that is the epitome of balance. Only by living a balanced life can we realize our full potential. Let us begin with our breathing exercises."
Nova — 01/27/2021
As Durro began, Nova had sat up and listened. She kept her emotions in check as she observed him. She then gave a tiny smile as he finishes before glancing at Ava. She quickly signed to Ava, 'I will take any anger you have of me once you understand my reasoning.' before going to meditate.
Ava Forma — 01/27/2021
Ava listened as Durro began understanding what he was saying. When he was finished she found herself glacing at Nova. She wasn't angry at her, she felt confused, disappointed and a little hurt. However anger wasnt apart of these emotions. Most of all she wanted to know why. She wanted to know what was going on with her lover. Maybe the close death along with what had happened shook her. Her mind was already trying to figure it out.
Thinking if she understood she could help guild Nova back to a more sold footing. She give Nova a small smile to show she wasn't angry but knew Nova would see sadness in her eyes. Before she started her breathing exercises.
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