Get it Together

[aipsylon]

As the conversation wound down, Gadeon looked to Unna. "Since you wish to wait to return this to Lady Baku, perhaps you will take the time to find a quiet room where we can meditate and talk both. I am concerned for you with the darkness I felt, but I too am concerned for Auro. He looked to Ashla and to Auro as he was leaving. "I know you wish to depart, but can you stay with Auro. I have concerns about his ability to make rational choices at this moment, and I think one of us should be there for him in the moment he needs us."

His eyes then returned to Unna, waiting to see if she was willing to begin the process of atonement, and, to see what she would say about her brother. There was much that he wanted to discuss, an much that had not been yet said. They were drifting apart, that was all he could tell, he had felt it earlier before all of this an had tried to put things together with the group meditation. For the time it seemed to have been mended, but the events of the last few days had shown him, such was simply not the case.

[Unna Hi Chaanu]

Unna listened to Gadeon, then nodded go Ashla to assure her to stay with Auro for the time being. "Now would be a good time to talk," Unna said as she led Gadeon toward her room. She wanted to hear him out, because she needed someone who understood atonement better than she. She genuinely could not understand why darkness had touched her, when she had done what she had to do in the moment to ensure the safety of the group. The previous night, as she stood watch over Lady Baku how she could possibly be sorry for securing her escape from the city, which eventually brought them to the safe room where Lady Baku rested. Of course that did not turn out to be safe, but Unna realized that she did not just use The Force to smash the assassins with whatever she could find as well. Maybe she had learned something. Discussing this with someone she could trust could hopefully help her to atone, but in that moment she did not feel it was possible.

Once they reached the room, Unna closed the door and reminded Gadeon of something she had said earlier. "I do not think I will find the peace to meditate on atonement here in Baku. I would feel more secure to meditate on this once we are at the academy, especially since our time here is limited. I do want to have dinner with Lady Baku, but I am willing to depart Baku after. There is much to discuss about what I have done though. I honestly do not know if atonement will come easy for me. I have gone over what I have done and can not find it in me to regret the actions, because it was all I could do in the moment to ensure that we all made it away from the hospital alive. I know that could have happened without lives being lost, but I could not take that chance after what had happened to our first speeder."

"I did learn from it though." This was a point she emphasized. "I did not do it again at the outpost."

[aipsylon]

Gadeon followe her to the room, he did not mind the choice of venues, and would give her the time to bring it up to him. he was quiet along the walk, able to tell that Unna was thinking about something as they made their way through the halls. "I understand that at times it can be difficult to find peace, and while you may not succeed I think at least you should try to meditate, to practice calming yourself. While away I spent a lot of time in meditation, and through that time I sensed a great deal of tension in the force. I am not sure we will have peace like we have enjoyed for much longer. That can wait though if you have other things you must do. From what you say, you have begun by recognizing the act of using the force to take a life as a dark one. At times one can do the wrong thing for the right reasons. Taking a life is at times something that is needed, but one should never use the force to do it. The force flows through life and with it it carries a consciousness all its own taking life taints that with darkness as well as those that manipulate it to do so. It is hard to say what should have been done. What the step you took toward the dark side was that you used the force to exert your will over the will of another. While killing the men was in self defense, that does not change the fact that the force was used to usurp the will of another in a manner that brought them to harm. It is for that that you attone, the circumstances do not matter, for if you seek hard enough you will find a reason that a dark act is fine, should be allowed. Do you understand?"

[Unna Hi Chaanu]

"I do have other tasks at hand right now, I addition to the pressing matter of when to depart Baku to consider. I do believe we lack adequate time to achieve atonement through meditation here as well. It's also more than a matter of the feeling peace required for meditation while we are here. It is also a matter of peace in the sense of not being interrupted. I've honestly never received so much attention as I have from Lady Baku and I am concerned about interruptions. Whatever amount of peace the future holds, I think it would be best to wait until we are relieved of our duty here, or until we relieve outselves if that is what we decide. That does not mean that your guidance is not welcome while we are here. I both welcome and appreciate it, as well as see understanding the process of atonement necessary before setting out to achieve it."

"If I do find that I am able to meditate here, I would find it more pressing to look into what Mya said about dying here. Do you remember what happened when we all meditated together for the first time since arriving at the academy and you saw what I saw about the possible ramifications of the fencing team taking patrol the night of their release? I wonder if our meditation time would be best spent together. We could ask Mya to join us after dinner."

"I believe I understand. So, what you are saying is that using the force to take a life is a dark act, because the force is consciously flowing through life and will be tainted with darkness if used to take a life? That is why I am now also tainted with darkness, because I used it in a way that caused it darkness?"

[aipsylon]

Gadeon nodded, yes that was easy to understand, it was much of the reason that he preferred to meditated in the solitude of the wilderness, it was rare you were interrupted there. "I understand that, should you like I can stand watch at the door to assure that you will not be interrupted. It would give you ample time, however, I do not see a problem with waiting save for the trap of procrastination."

Again he listened as she talked about the topic of Mya dying here. "Yes, that would be useful information to have, but accurate as her visions have proven, the fact that she has told us has already changed it. I believe that our disunion may be part of the reason this has come to pass. Look at how fractured we are at the moment, if we are to hold together, we need to work together, not separately."

The last part was what he had come here to speak about, but he had no problems with speaking on other issues as well. In a way, it is not only taking a life, but even using the force to harm it. Have you ever been in tune with the force when a being died around you. I don't mean generally, I mean really feeling it?"

[Unna Hi Chaanu]

"I will make a pact with you, because I know your concerned about procrastination," Unna began to assure Gadeon. "I am not trying to procrastinate right now, but I do need to get ready for dinner once we are done speaking, so it won't be necessary for you to guard my door. If Lady Baku should come by, I do wish to speak with her and bring some things to her attention, as well as discuss my recent purchase with her, which reminds me of something I need to ask you. When you attempted to stop the saboteur at the outpost, did she have a barcode on her neck?"

Unna walked across the room and poured a glass of water for herself, as well as one for Gadeon. "I will make a pact with you that once we have concluded our duties here, I will allow you to remind me and keep me on track with the process of atonement, should I fall to procrastination. I know you are concerned for me, and I appreciate it. I still worry that atonement could be very complex for me. I regret using the force now to carry out my will, but I can't help but think of the alternative possibilities had I not taken action. I know...it's pointless to dwell on such things."

Unna took several gulps of her water. She definitely wasn't used to talking this much, especially since Nontho and Passik were no longer there to encourage her to use her voice. Her mouth was dry.

"I agree," Unna nodded as she topped off her water glass and sat it on a coaster. "The disunion is troubling. It was never like this back at the enclave."

Unna looked curiously at Gadeon as he spoke of feeling the death of a being. "No, I have not..." She didn't know what else to say, so she would listen.