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Talking to Durro 11/29/2021
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/29/2021
After her talk with Professor Kanobi Astra headed back to the Jupiter one to speak to Master Thel-Tanis. She was a lot happier to be out of that flight suite her hair was tied back and braded her Padawan brad hung over her left shoulder. She needed her belongings back then she would be returning to the professors ship. " Master do you have a moment" Astra asked when she found him.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
Durro has his bag and an armful of stuff, and has just closed the door to his quarters when Astra finds him.
"Astra. I was just getting some things moved to the shuttle; since we are departing soon. Are you ready to go?"
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
" not exactly Master. Let me help you then we can talk" she asked. She did not want to be rude. She had somethings she needed to speak to him about but it could waght a few moments.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
"Until the medical supplies are moved, getting these things up to the shuttle will bit a chore. We'll have more privacy here."
Durro puts down his load on the table in the common area before turning back to Astra. "What's on your mind?"
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
" umm..."Astra said. She had not expect Durro to stop what he was doing. " I master it's umm... I almost tried to kill Synia then Ashanti started yelling at me because I tried walking away from symia but she tried to make me to I kinda ran off because I umm... She told me she killed Quinn. I wanted to kill her but that's wrong and not sumthing a Jedi does. She brought up some pretty good points about you thought." She said her voice became cold for a moment. " why did you abandon me on Raxis, and why we're you so quick to want to send me to starlight are you that eager to get rid of me or see me caged" Astra said. Tears in her eyes she honestly believed what she had just questioned him about, a and more importantly she was hurt by what she believed.
" Why master, do you care at all, or has having been stolen from your family and fighting as a child soldier in a war made you cold?" She asked him.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
"It sounds like you're talking to more than Ashanti." Durro says. "Some of these accusations are familiar, but some are new."
He sighs and adds;
"Let's take these one at a time. I didn't abandon you on Raxus, I was in the process of trying to get you out diplomatically. So that when we left, you wouldn't have to live on the run from the ORA or other law enforcement. Especially since the ORA controls much of the Outer Rim. I had just come to conclusion that such a solution was impossible, and was going to make sure the shuttle was ready before freeing you. It would be a shame to break you out of prison and escape to the shuttle only to find the wings and engines scattered on the ground. Would end our escape rather quickly. I also wanted to recover your lightsaber to assist in our escape, assuming the ship was ready. You, or Ashanti or whoever acted before I had the chance. I was unable to recover your lightsaber and did not know my ship was ready until they told me to leave. Had you waited, had you been patient, I would have been there after doing some planning, and not just jumping in blind."
"As for Starlight, it was a suggestion. If Professor Kenobi is correct in his diagnosis, then this mental disorder was likely augmented by the Force, if not caused by it. We learned that the Doctors on Starlight are the best Force-based Doctors in the galaxy, who better to assist you in overcoming this disorder then them? Are you claiming Professor Kenobi is more qualified to treat a Force-based or enhanced illness than the Masters at Starlight? It was merely a suggestion; you opposed it and since you are a grown woman I dropped it. No Starlight. Instead we will rely on a Professor of... what exactly is his degree in again?"
"If you feel I've failed you as a Master then you are free to leave. I'm not a Jedi, not officially in this universe. I never claimed I could make you a Jedi Knight; the Jedi here would never recognize my teachings. I am willing to help you if you are willing to learn, I've made that clear already. If you've changed your mind about that I understand; if you wish to become a Jedi Knight, you need an actual Jedi Master. That means returning to Coruscant, not running off into the Unknown Regions."
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
" Master I did not know anything of your attempts to free me from the ORA. I had not heard anything from you for some time. Had you spoken to me even sent a message that would have helped. Also I spoke to the profcer, Ashanti finally gave me the supposed name of her homeworld, and I had questions, to be fair the conversation did not come to you until he started sustaining me about sumthing I had said to him earlier. Anyway, he leaves I may have been captured during that mission you sent me on and programmed somehow. If he can prove it we can get the charges dropped." Astra said. She calmed down some knowing now that Durro had not a banded her. " I'm sorry master, I honestly believed you had abandoned me," she said.
She took a few deep breaths. " Master you know as well as I do those doctors would not treat me they would lock me in carbinight or worse. The Coruscant order can not be trusted. I learned that the hard way master. You don't know them the way I do" she said. Quietly she still felt he did not understand her issue with Starlight.
At this point Astra looked shocked. She held her hands up. " Hold on master. I never said I was leaving you. I'm upset I feel that you don't care. I mean com on you sent me on a mission into a top-secret bace that I was never trained for. I was never training for sneaky stealthy stuff and I told you as much. Now I have learned there's a very real possibility that I was captured and sumthing was done to me that lead to master Morse death. Then to have you so quick to want to send me off to be locked in a cage or worse that hurts Master. I had already felt like I was not worth training an beyond help. To hear the person I trusted, the only master I had ever meet other then Lord sereno that saw me seemed to understand want to send me away to someone else's problem hurt" she said tears streaked her face and she was which to turn her back to him try and wipe them away. Damit she was only proving she was an emotional wreck
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
Durro wraps his arms around Astra in a hug until she calms down. When she is calm and listening, he lets her go and says,
"I know now that sending you to the West Side was a mistake. I already explained why I did so and I stand by that reasoning. I'm not a perfect teacher and I'll likely make other mistakes in the future. I promise to do my best, but I will fail and we'll both have to work through the consequences."
He waits for a moment for the above to process.
"That said, I feel I'm shouldering more than my fair share of the blame here. I'm hearing a lot of 'if you had just' or 'if you had only done', when the truth of it is we're both at fault. I may have been mistaken to send you on the mission, but you chose to rush ahead and attack Master Mors, and you chose to free yourself rather than wait for me. You chose the quick and easy path, instead of being calm, and patient. The only way you'll be able to change that, to be what a Jedi should be, is when you recognize that you, and only you, are responsible for your own actions. Take responsibility for what you've done, learn from that mistake, and then you can move forward and hopefully avoid making that mistake in the future. It's much easier said than done, but you'll never be a Jedi until you stop pointing the finger of blame at everyone else and point it at the one responsible for your actions."
He gives her another quick, firm hug and adds;
"I'm not trying to send you away, that was never my intention. Even if we did go to Starlight, I never indicated I was going to dump you there and fly away. You asked me to train you and I intend to; I intend to give you every bit of my attention, to pass on everything I have learned to you, just as I did to Tesara. The only reason I suggested Starlight is because, if Professor Kenobi is correct, I know I'm the least qualified to help you with such an issue. I'm going to need help from someone who knows what they're doing."
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
Astra tenses for a moment shocked that Durro hugged her. After a moment she stated to calm down. She was for a brief moment reminded of Lord Sereno how many times had he held her like this when she had been upset. She simply lessoned to him as he spoke choosing not to speak up until after his second stament. " Master im well aware of my mistakes and my own failer and I have admitted that my issue was never that you were unable to stop me. My issue was that I seamed you did not care." she said shaking her head.
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
She lesioned as he spoke again. She could not stop the tears this time but at lest she was crying because she was happy. She throw her arms around Durro and hugged him tightly. " Thank you master I'm sorry I should not have doubted you, though master for force sake we need to work on communication" She said letting go of him and smiling. " As for Professor I sagest you consider working with him on this. Master you know a great deal about the force but we are both lacking when it come to knowledge not pertaining to the force. He has a great deal to teach to. That being said master I do need the sereno Lagacy Kiber crystal back along with my bracelet and journal. but the Kiber crystal is very important after we finish this mission I intended to start the process to bond with it. I do think it would be ideal for me to stay aboard the Professor's ship. Given that im on medication to treat my issue I think its a good idea for me to be where the meditation can be monitored so i don't end up costing myself more harm. also if I'm there I can help Tesara when she wakes up. Lets plan for an move forward Master what do you say?" She said.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
"If I seem not to care, it's likely because my order taught detachment to a degree I've come to understand is unhealthy. We were taught to deny our emotions, rather than accept them and control them. I apologize if I seem cold because of that; it's something I still struggle with."
"I agree that communication is our biggest weakness; we need to stop running around so quickly that we don't have time to talk to each other." He smiles, then looks confused.
"As for your bracelet and crystal, I returned them already. I'm not sure what you did with them, but I returned them when you last asked for them."
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
" I can help you with that I need to learn control and you need to learn to let yourself feel you emotions. and master our attachments are not bad in some cases the bonds we shair with other people can make us stronger. " Astra said with a grin.
she thought thoughtfully for a moment. " Yes more communication and training Ill never catch up to tesara at this rate" she said and giggled. as if catching up to tesara was even possible. "Ill check Tesaras room before we leave let me help you get everything to your ship" Astra said.
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
Durro nods and smiles, waiting with the pile for Astra to return.
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
Astra will go find her Kiber crystal bracelet and Journal then rejoin Durro to help him. " Oh master before I forget we are getting ready to go into a fight, Im not sure where the lightsaber you let me barrow is but i would aprisheat it if you would let me use it during the mission." she said.
(Player and caricter forgot lol)
@Durro Thel-Tanis
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
"Of course. I last dropped it on the flight deck. You'll likely find it there, unless someone else moved it."
@(Princess) Astra Korraay
(Princess) Astra Korraay — 11/30/2021
" Right be right back master" She disappears again the retrieves the discarded lightsaber and returns once again. She will help Durro get his shuttle ready. " Master you should make time to speak to Professor Kenobi, If you need me before we leave ill be on his ship I would like to be there when Tesara wakes up and for the other reason I mentioned. May the force be with you master" she said and hugged him once more before returning to Professor Kenobi's ship.
(End unless @Durro Thel-Tanis has sumthing to add)
Durro Thel-Tanis — 11/30/2021
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